大家好。我通常不是一个分享者，但我被建议参加任何和所有会议来克服我的上瘾。如果不是由心灵与我说话的话，我会继续这个破坏性的道路。我的呜咽的故事终于结束了一个不快乐的婚姻。我的前任有一个问题，我总是负责任的问题，确保账单是支付的，并照顾孩子。没有消耗的收入。当孩子们变老时，婚姻中的事情变得更糟，如果我没有出去，我就知道，我没有希望。同时，7年前，最大的部落赌场最大的部落赌场开设了下一个城镇。当我需要逃跑时，我开始了。长话短说，我赢得了一些奖金，它只赶上了我的税收责任，即使我已经失去了超过我的绳索。 I have also burned through my retirement. When I am at the casino, I would keep playing to win back my losses & if I did win it back, I would just lose it again, or come back another day to lose more. I am finally trying to get my life back on track after a difficult divorce and a son who no longer communicates with me. That has been the most difficult. I haven’t talked to him for 16 months. He married a crazy lady who has persuaded him to cut all communication with his family, including his brother (who happens to live with me). I have a 3 year old granddaughter who doesn’t even know who I am. I don’t think he even knows how extensive my problem is. (I also have a large student loan I took out so he could attend college. I never told him about it.) The psychic told me if I want him back in my life, I need to stop gambling. That i where I am today. I think I can do it if I just don’t go. All other attempts to go & keep to a budget, have failed. I am trying to make things right again, in my life. I have been avoiding my responsibilities due to depression, and an addiction to gambling. I now owe state & federal taxes & today set up a payment plan for state taxes. I previously canceled my health insurance because it was outrageously expensive & I am fairly healthy. This life journey can sure suck at times, but at least there’ a pandemic going on to help me not feel so bad about staying home. Thanks for reading, ya’ll. Good look on your journey.